life comes a full circle...again!

the circle of life fascinates me no end...

the same phases come and they go and yet return again...everytime leaving me with mixed feelings...

its the same place with the same people...just a changed situtation and a whole lot of coping up...
and the same anxiety of what next...and the same lot of endless waiting...for the future to unfold!

thank god some things dont change though...the same feeling within that no matter what everything will always happen for the best!

amen!

after the calm, the storm awaits!

i have been putting this off for a long time now. but no longer now!

or guess two three more days...[sigh]

bright flaming red...

i m losing patience and i m feeling foolish...

[:(]

n i dont like that.

i dont like people who pretend to be gods...who think they can judge capabilities of others...they are not leaders they are worst of the disciples of their own conceited selves...they are self obsessed...they lack humility...and invariably they rise to the positions of authority.

i get sick of the same imbalance everywhere...[:(]

and today i m just upset angry and impatient about it...

sometimes what i miss most is a conversation...and today makes me feel sad because i have one less from my set of friends with whom i have enjoyed having one...and i realise the next two and a half months are going to be a lot less without her.

go ahead...be gone with it !

the days are numbered...
14 days to go...

and yet again i realise its easier said than done
un-learning to be a friend is not at all fun!

a 'novel' way of life

after a long time a book moved me to tears...made me forget my life in a way that i could completely lose myself into the roles and characters in the book

what is it about these characters that i so much relate to...as if i am living their life...feeling every pain that they suffer...almost an irony that i cant feel my own life that closely at times and feel as if i am constantly running to avoid living the reality...yet its so much easier to live the same in the novels...

no by no means am i complaining life is unfair to me!

its just that the experience called life is better lived at times through the characters in novels like 'Thornbirds' ...the hurt, the pain, which i put aside somewhere within become sore and the bitter sweet sensation of it all brings a kind of refreshment to life that cant be put in mere words...

tum

tum...

ek ehsaas ho
pata nahin kyon
jee uthne ki aas ho

ho to bahot dur mujhse
par lagta hai ki paas ho

tum...

na jaane kyon itne khaas ho!

tum...

ek talaash ho
pata nahin kabhi miloge bhi
ya sirf ek abhaas ho!

tum

...ek khwaab ho!

adieu 2006...welcome 2007!

the year gone by seems so dear as it passes me by
the new year seems like a stranger as i embrace it with a smile

i raise a toast
to all those moments lived in 2006
to everything unknown in 2007

cheers!