the last day of being pgp-1

dunno why i am so restless and exhausted!!!

change is not something that we can get accustomed to very easily....have been contemplating this now for quite some time and yet when its here it is making me feel queer...why is what i am trying to introspect although i know the answers...but there has to be something apart from the obvious as well which is shaking me up from within!

the last day here as a junior isnt that consequential or is it???

i think part of the uneasiness is also about leaving this room (Kachhnar 15)...which has been so mine for these last 9 months...talk about getting attached to people ...here i m getting emotional about a lifeless room...

actually its not a room...its a hint of what life is going to be like tomorrow...and thats what is discomfitting me now... :(

okies...

enough of philoso-phising on life...

what i am definitely goin to miss when i come back on campus is my room...the comfort of being around girls all the time...and especially both my neighbours...no matter how distant we have become staying here

i m definitely goin to miss have the cooler on my floor...(hoping that staying at first floor will get me some much needed exercise)

my world is like a pack of cards...just when everyone is in place and i feel like i am almost winning...it seems like i have won some and lost some...and somebody reshuffles the pack...with again that uncertainty of not knowing what cards are goin to come to me...

once again i am preparing for a new deal...with life...there is a strange happy-sad feeling with it...yes there is this bit of happiness of discovering something new with a new deal...but also the listlessness of losing the present comfort as well

i want to smile at what life keeps on offering me every once in a while.its not as bad as i fear it to be...

there is this strange intense love-hate feeling i can associate with this kind of life!