finally lost!!!

felt like writing a mail to you...to communicate... that we have lost each other...
no its not a sudden realisation!

have felt it all along the past so many months...felt like telling you...coz i guess finally i have accepted this...and i wont ever go back on it again...never like who we were...

but then i really cannot afford to let you tear apart the smallest of memories that are left with me about the us we had been at one point of my life.

really sad though!

i have learnt a lot from you...about love...about life...about myself as well...i have admired you. for small things that were so much you.i have loved you. and now i have lost you.

the saddest part though is not that.

it is that i no longer feel the need to communicate to you
to tell you things that i want to
to share things going on in my life
to laugh with you
to shed a tear when i am low
to smile with you at times when i make a fool of myself

to even let you know that there are still some times when i miss you
to remind you that u forgot my birthday

the saddest part is
that you have finally proved your belief
that i am not there for you

coz i dont feel like being there for you
...coz you just dont let me be
you dont accept that things have changed
...
coz i see you blaming me for everything that has gone wrong now

the saddest part is
i have become indifferent to you

and there is nothing i feel like doing about it!