strange encounters

the music in the background was the only sound in the room...yet there was no awkwardness...she smiled away to herself. Deep within she was trying to figure out something that would make him feel a little better than what he was feeling. he was lying on the bed just behind her chair listening to music. life hasnt been exactly fair to him lately and he has been strong throughout.dont think she could have seen him breaking down.

sometimes she questions herself as to why does she care so much for him. why does she bother. but she knows she does care. although tomorrow once again situations might change and maybe she wont bother so much, but today...yes today she does care for many small small things...more than he would ever know

so with the music, she decides to break the silence by arbit questions...about career, life relationships...about success, failures and milestones. she isnt too sure if he is even bothering to listen to what she is blabbbering away...but she doesnt mind that...dunno why. i think as long as he is peaceful at the outset she wont really mind anything.

the problem is he is kinda disturbed within. yes she could feel it. doesnt how to tell him though that she understands and yet not understand it completely. when he says "you know i think i cant really love anyone" she feels like giving him that assuring hug that its just not true! she surely doesnt second his belief.

"you know i want you to just lie down beside me" this does take her by surprise. she doesnt get it. no she doesnt see any lust in his eyes...yet she doesnt know how to react. no she wasnt scared also. she just fails to see reason. why would he feel like that. surely he doesnt see her as a prospective...or does he. but no she cant be wrong his eyes dont tell her that.

there is this longing in his eyes...to make himself believe that he can love someone.maybe thats his way of proving to himself that he is not completely incapable of loving...yes he even says that aloud "i think i am like a dog, i need someone close enough to express my affection"

Her heart goes out to him, but being the stuck up herself doesnt let go of her apprehensions of lying down next to a guy...after all the he-she mechanics cant be ignored or can it???

strangely this doesnt make them awkward. he drifts off to sleep. she doesnt think otherwise of him.

for an instant he seems like a kid to her, who just wants to hold his dear pet tight before drifting into sleep. she wants to kiss his forehead and put him off to sleep, just by staying close to him. she does nothing of the sort.

and suddenly there is a jerk...she realises that she had drifted off to sleep long before any of this happened.

yes strange encounters have a way of touching our lives in the strangest of ways.